Thursday, October 25

I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it.


This is stupid. I feel lonely and I can't shake the feeling. Unless I'm studying. Then I get distracted. Yeah. Burrow into work because a) it needs it cause zomg eggzams and b) it stops weird anxious constriction feelings.

But look! Even Blogger has read more cuts!

I only found out about them the other day so I shall use it this once cause it's amusing. It won't happen again.

9:59pm

 

I walked through the door with you, it was cold, but something 'bout it felt like home somehow. And I
left my scarf there at your sister's house. And you still got it in your drawer even now. Oh, your sweet disposition, and my wide eyed gaze, we're singing in a car getting lost upstate. Autumn leaves falling down like pieces in their place and I can picture it after all these days. And I know it's long gone, and that magic's not here no more. And it might be okay, but I'm not fine at all.

Cause here we are again on that little town street, you almost ran the red cause you were looking over me. Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well

Photo album on my counter. Your cheeks were turning red. You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin size bed, And your mother's telling stories 'bout you on the t-ball team. You tell me about your past thinking your future was me. And I know it's long gone, and there was nothing else I could do. And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to. 

Cause here we are again in the middle of the night, we're dancing round the kitchen in the refrigerator light. Down the stairs I was there I remember it all too well.

And maybe we got lost in translation. Maybe I asked for too much. But maybe this thing was a masterpiece ´til you tore it all up. Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well. Hey you called me up again just to break me like a promise. So casually cruel in the name of being honest, I'm a crumbled up piece of paper lying here cause I remember it all all all too well.

Time won't fly it's like I'm paralyzed by it. I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it. After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own. Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone. But your keep my old scarf from that very first week cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me. You can't get rid of it, cause you remember it all too well yeah.

Cause there we are again when I loved you so, back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known. It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well. Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all. Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all. It was rare, I was there. I remember it all too well.

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