Of getting way too annoyed at things which aren't worthy my annoyance

One life you gotta do what you should

Or at least try to. As Alice's mum said, the only person you're bothering when you get annoyed at others is yourself.

Although being annoyed at others is still fun.

But yeah. I'll do what's right by me. Not that anyone's telling me not to.

I shall attempt to be calmer from here on in. After all, I'm the only one who ends up all flustered if I get flustered. I will pick other times to be flustered. Just not every time I hear stuff which I don't like.

I'll be more selective about it. Aye.

This post makes no sense. I'm sleepy. I need to do work.

This is the part of the holidays where I hit a bit of a panic attack.

And Bleach, I saw the ending of your last chapter coming about five or six days ago. As soon as I found out that he was surprised cause weird reiatsu was coming out of him (I thought someone just shouted his name in surprise cause Chad had found out something extraordinary...), I knew.

What you don't have you don't need it now

That's a lie Bono. Very nice line. But in my current state of mind, a bit of a lie.

Of being in year 12

Sometimes, it really hits me that I'm in my final year of high school. Like that time during SRC exec speeches when I'm sitting up at the front of the hall, gazing up at the stage. "That's a mighty fine stage," I thought to myself.

A little strange. But I love that school. Despite the lack of facilities and the hour-long commute every day, I love it.

This past week has been exceptionally emotional. Sitting in a little madrigal circle in the theatre, all it took was a gift and a "dah" from a life-long friend to set me off. Sitting here just thinking about chorals makes my heart ache. Because I'll never be there again. Which is a strange thought.

Then there was Mary's farewell, where Mieke's tears set me off as well. All this may or may not be attributed to me being overly tired.

I want to live this last year to the absolute fullest.

P.S. And every year after this one too.

Edit 9:11pm
I have had One running around my head for the better part of the week, with every line hitting my heart every time I listen to it. So it's high time I do some massive quote from it. The whole songs gets to me, but some parts get to me more.

Tried a few live versions, but they don't have the same desperation of the original. It's that weird squeaky breaking thing he does with his voice which gets to me.

Is it getting better? Or do you feel the same? Does it make it easier on you now you got someone to blame? 

Did I disappoint you? Or leave a bad taste in your mouth? You act like you never had love and you want me to go without. Well it's too late tonight, to drag the past out into the light. We're one, but we're not the same. We get to carry each other. 

Did I ask too much? More than a lot? You gave me nothing, now it's all I got. We're one, but we're not the same. Well, we hurt each other and we'll do it again. You'll say, "love is a temple, love the higher law." "Love is a temple." "Love the higher law." You ask me to enter, but then you make me crawl. And I can't be holding on to what you've got, when all you got is hurt. One love. One blood. One life, you got to do what you should. One life with each other. 

One life, but we're not the same. We get to carry each other. 

Carry each other. 

Ramble 17

I spent all of yesterday reading Fairy Tail, so I'm uber(ish) early to do Mary's scrapbook, and various other things which need to be done. I also need to eat breakfast.

Can't embed the original, so here's a live version.

God damn I want his glasses. 

Chorals is coming up. Chorals stress is running high. General stress is running high. Fifty billion things to do. Fifty billion things I need to get on top of. And I spent yesterday reading Fairy Tail...I'm not very good at this year 12 lark. 

Recently gone back to my roots, and listening to Oasis. Current playlist comprised of:

Don't Go Away

Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Just Getting Older

Talk Tonight

Listen Up

(You've Got) The Heart Of A Star

Sunday Morning Call

Carry Us All

Cast No Shadow

Here's hoping that Wonderwall is on the medley this year. 

You can only be what you are

So don't go away. Say what you'll say: say that you'll stay forever and a day, in the time of my life. Cause I need more time. Yes, I need more time, just to make things right...