Wednesday, December 19

If you won't save me, please don't waste my time

Listen up, what's the time, said today I'm gonna speak my mind. Take me up to the top of the world I wanna see my crime. Day by day there's a man in a suit who's gonna make you pay for the thoughts that you think, and the words they won't let you say. One fine day, gonna leave you all behind. It wouldn't be so bad if I had more time. Sailing down a river alone, I've been trying to find my way back home. But I don't believe in magic, life is automatic and I don't mind being on my own.

Had a good day with Em last week, and good days are fun. Went to Lincraft to buy bees on cloth to sew indie patches, and find lace which was, in the end, not found. Returned a violently overdue library book, then bought ribbon for my nefarious star jar making schemes. Walked past balloon dude making massive balloons, then went lunch and walked past huge massive adorable Yoshi plushie. His foot was the size of my head. Ate food, fished radioactive green jelly from the bottom of the dessert. Then chilled at Myer for a very, very extensive amount of time. Went through the underwear section cause it's fun, then went to toys which was also fun and sometimes disturbing cause people make creepy toys. Then finally went to the electronics section to find lights, which had been the initial objective. Found lights. Lights sold out. Sat on the floor browsing through stationery instead. Then had tea at Chocolate Lounge. I am noob at the tea making. Then bought a key ring. Then got escorted down to the platform.

Gift wrap on Monday was also fun. Met a second year comm student from Melbourne who was wrapping with me, and when Anita randomly visited, turned out they knew each other too. Sometimes the world can be very small. Gift wrapped with Julia last week too. We struggle under pressure.

Monday, December 10

Red

Came out ages ago, but I was listening to the album on repeat today so felt I had to stick my songfeels somewhere. SO HERE HAVE SOME SONGFEELS.


Loving him was like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street, faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ended so suddenly. Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fall, like the colours of autumn so bright just before they lose it all. Losing him was blue like I'd never know, missing him was dark grey all alone, forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met. But loving him was red. 
Touching him was like realising all you ever wanted was right there in front of you. Memorising him was as easy as knowing the words to your old favourite song. Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realising there's no right answers. Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong. Losing him was blue like I'd never know, missing him was dark grey all alone, forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met. But loving him was red. 
Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes, tell myself it's time now gotta let go. But moving on from him is impossible when I still see it all in my head. Burning red. Loving him was red. 
Losing him was blue like I'd never know, missing him was dark grey all alone, forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met. But loving him was red. Burning red.  
And that's why he's spinning round in my head. Comes back to me, burning red. His love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street. 
Elton John was playing on the bus back home. I was rocking out to the Crocodile Rock. It was wonderful.


For some reason we were singing this at dinner. Randomly popped up. Old cheesy pop songs. 

Mmmm so what have I done lately? I shall check my calendar.

After speech night:

- Partner interview. Was good. Bonded with the partner. 
- Passed driving test. 
- And according to my calendar, the only other thing I've done since speech night was see Austin today. I felt like I did a lot more though...
- Oh had training for gift wrap with Julia. Went to the pleases first to get stuff signed and stamped, then had Schnitz for dinner. My feet really hurt by the end. All this standing and walking business. 
- OH YES I WENT OUT WITH BEC. Went to San Churro and had weirdly salty churros. Then had sushi for lunch. Walked up and down and all around Knox. Saw nice dresses but I never buy anything without my mum, so went back the same night with family to buy dresses. 
- Saw Bond again with the brother because he didn't have anyone to see it with but now he does so we've both actually ended up seeing it twice. Got lost trying to find Hoyts. 

Event-wise, it looks to be a good rest of the week. Haircut, orientation day, gift wrap, then Em. Then further gift wrapping next week. Just hope no one rocks up with a basketball.

Changed the layout cause I decided I don't like blinding white and orange. I remember someone once read really deeply into the fact that all our blogs were black or grey. To be fair, we did seem to like blacks and greys.