So last time I posted, it was the day after the Korra finale. It is again the day after the Korra finale and I am again emotionally destroyed by said finale to the point where my world has been rocked and I'm kind of looking around at all these people going about their business as usual and going "how has your world not been completely altered by an animated television series???" The music was amazing, the animation was amazing, the fight scenes were amazing and that frickin cast is just amazing. Diverse and talented, and thank you thank you for that queer representation involving two women of colour.
I also notice that last time I blogged before the last time I blogged was about how expensive textbooks were. Last time it was 250 for two books, this time around I have looked at law books next year which are about 250 FOR ONE. Ridiculousness.
In other news I graduated, after a huge long love-hate struggle with music. Commerce was...simple, straightforward, never really feared public humiliation of failure from that. Music will always carry a bit of "oh no what if I screw up in front of people and they judge me", and it's a bit sad that I'm not going to be a pianist anymore. I don't feel like a pianist anymore, it's not something I work at every day, it's not something that's an everyday part of my life anymore and it's sad but at the same time I am glad because I have learnt so much and music will always be a huge part of who I am. It is so engrained in me, and I'm glad that I got it. I'm quite proud to have made it through the diploma when it was so tiring and tough and a lot of people give up, despite the bitter negativity and the many many embarrassing tears. I have enjoyed it thoroughly and I'm so grateful for the people I've met, and just the feelings and experiences I've been able to have because of music.
Been feeling good lately, have had about a month without massive hangups over things. Weird sensations are beginning to creep in again but I generally just sleep before they can take over my brain too much. It's amazing how relaxed I feel just not having to be in uni and have expectations to live up to, though I would undoubtedly be bored to tears (quite literally) if this went on for much longer. But it's nice to have a break and just not worry.
And I dunno how to finish this. That is all goodbye.