Home is where...

...you can exit your room many times after having gone to bed to go to the toilet without fear that you're going to be judged by other occupants of the building. 

Doom is coming and its name is Enterprise Performance Management

This is the most underprepared I've ever been for an exam. Oh well. Free crepes cause last exam woooo.

In other news I had a very strange dream where I was taking photos of animals, and somehow I got a star-nosed mole's nose stuck in my lens, which was pretty gross, so I yanked that out (it was a tiny orange thing). And then I realise that my entire lens had in fact been covered by a massive nose. Somehow I'd gotten so close to the mole that in adjusting my lens, I had managed to catch it's nose. So I had this massive slimy thing covering my whole lens, though funnily enough I could still see through it, and also oddly I had not been taking pictures of any moles star-nosed or otherwise, and in fact had been stalking some really pretty birds that flew away before I could take a photo.

And then there was a kangaroo on my rooftop.

Before that, I went to the west side for some reason, and got really upset once I got there cause I wanted to go home and the next tram was in half an hour so I was screaming and crying cause I needed to get back into the city to get home cause it was already past five and my mother would get angry at me. So some kindly homeless guy gives me twenty US bucks for a cab out, which wouldn't have helped much anyway, but then I magically got back to 'uni' (it didn't look like uni) and I still had his twenty bucks and felt bad cause I didn't need it after all so I gave it to my random homeless friend (this one was a different homeless guy to the one I'd gotten the money from). Yeah. And something about a shopping centre and not being able to find Julia...and speeches about people...and that's all I can remember.

But yes, my point was I have an exam in four hours and I don't know what's going on. Span of control. Goal congruence. Yeah I got this.

Progress

Things that I have made progress on during SWOTVAC/exam period:

Plants vs Zombies: Up to level 4-2

Plants vs Zombies 2: Lots of game time

Fullmetal Alchemist: Finished re-reading

Fullmetal Alchemist 2003: Finished watching

Castle: Five episodes

Movies: Iron Man 3

Needless to say business finance went a bit neglected.

Pretty sure that when my piano teacher said 'make these two sections different', he didn't mean 'skip out on half of those notes in the left hand that you didn't skip the first time'

Procrastiposting

How is it that with my phone on airplane mode, it still knows where it is? I take photos and it knows where I am (with the exception of constantly thinking my house is in Seymour for some bizarre reason). It has accurately pinpointed where I was in the US despite the fact that it was on airplane mode the whole time, and the only time I connected to wifi was when I was back in my hotel. HOW DOES IT KNOW?? IS IT SENDING SOME KIND OF SECRET SIGNAL CAUSE THAT'S SLIGHTLY FRIGHTENING WHAT IF I DON'T WANT TO BE TRACKED BY THE FORCES OF EVIL????

Things to do after exams:
- Make plushies
- Take photos
- Fiddle with photos in Lightroom/Photoshop (figure out basic photo editing)
- Start on sem one repertoire (sigh haven't even finished this semester's recital)
- BACK UP EVERYTHING FROM MY DESKTOP ONTO EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE BECAUSE DESKTOP GOING KAPUT AND IT'S SAD
- HTML????

In other news I bought some adorable bird things. And yes, it is surrounded by my studying stuff, and yes, everything except for the actual subject matter is well lit. It's not my fault I have down lights above my desk.

Also bought tickets to see Wicked. Also bought tickets to see John Mayer. Total gig fund this year: over five hundred bucks. Oops.

I hate rain

When it rains, one must avoid snails. 

Rule #1: Don't squish the snails. 

Which can be very mentally taxing. They camaflage, which saves them from birds perhaps, but not from my large feet, so they can be very difficult to spot and when I walk around the block I have to play a constant game of "Is that a shadow a rock or a snail?????" It's very trying. 

Rule #2: Don't let the dog squish any snails. 

Also taxing because I have to try to look at what's in front of the dog and steer her away from any snails in her path which is difficult because when she has her mind set on walking somewhere, she will go there. 

Another game I must play: is that a slug or a leaf?

Also millipedes are heaps creepy. The bottom of my pant legs also get wet. And if I want to look nice, tough luck, rain will screw up your hair. And your clothes (see bottom of pant legs). 

Don't get that sinking feeling don't fall apart. 

Sunday, Sarah style

I have not practiced piano, I have read a book, I have done part of my assignment due tomorrow, and I have binged on fruit and Pringles. There are 26 days until my first exam. I should start revising this week.

Now you know

More ballin tomorrow night which should be good. Next year I am dragging everyone along with me and it shall be even better. 

Break was not productive. It was productive in the socialising department. Actually it wasn't even very social. I saw three people basically. Still good. Three awesome people, so very good. I want summer and sun and not freezing wind and rain. Weather today was nice but day off so I didn't actually have any need to go outside. I shall go study now cause my sister has finally left her computer and now I can take over and do my toot work. I'm sleepy though. And that has been an exciting update from Sarah.

Turn down these voices inside my head. Lay down with me, tell me no lies. Just hold me close. Don't patronise me. Cause I can't make you love me if you don't. You can't make your heart feel something it won't.

And it's been there playing on your mind. Now you know you're wrong.

I am an awkward

Self-consciousness has gotten to the point of ridiculous. Stalking old posts on someone's profile, clicked into status, saw a comment and liked it without thinking. Then panic ensued about people judging me about liking the comment when it was from almost two years ago about a slightly awkward subject matter for me despite comment poster not knowing me. Unliked. Desperately hoping that unliking somehow kills their notification. It won't. I will proceed to feel embarrassed for the rest of the day.

I need to calm down.