Pretty sure that when my piano teacher said 'make these two sections different', he didn't mean 'skip out on half of those notes in the left hand that you didn't skip the first time'

Procrastiposting

How is it that with my phone on airplane mode, it still knows where it is? I take photos and it knows where I am (with the exception of constantly thinking my house is in Seymour for some bizarre reason). It has accurately pinpointed where I was in the US despite the fact that it was on airplane mode the whole time, and the only time I connected to wifi was when I was back in my hotel. HOW DOES IT KNOW?? IS IT SENDING SOME KIND OF SECRET SIGNAL CAUSE THAT'S SLIGHTLY FRIGHTENING WHAT IF I DON'T WANT TO BE TRACKED BY THE FORCES OF EVIL????

Things to do after exams:
- Make plushies
- Take photos
- Fiddle with photos in Lightroom/Photoshop (figure out basic photo editing)
- Start on sem one repertoire (sigh haven't even finished this semester's recital)
- BACK UP EVERYTHING FROM MY DESKTOP ONTO EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE BECAUSE DESKTOP GOING KAPUT AND IT'S SAD
- HTML????

In other news I bought some adorable bird things. And yes, it is surrounded by my studying stuff, and yes, everything except for the actual subject matter is well lit. It's not my fault I have down lights above my desk.

Also bought tickets to see Wicked. Also bought tickets to see John Mayer. Total gig fund this year: over five hundred bucks. Oops.

I hate rain

When it rains, one must avoid snails. 

Rule #1: Don't squish the snails. 

Which can be very mentally taxing. They camaflage, which saves them from birds perhaps, but not from my large feet, so they can be very difficult to spot and when I walk around the block I have to play a constant game of "Is that a shadow a rock or a snail?????" It's very trying. 

Rule #2: Don't let the dog squish any snails. 

Also taxing because I have to try to look at what's in front of the dog and steer her away from any snails in her path which is difficult because when she has her mind set on walking somewhere, she will go there. 

Another game I must play: is that a slug or a leaf?

Also millipedes are heaps creepy. The bottom of my pant legs also get wet. And if I want to look nice, tough luck, rain will screw up your hair. And your clothes (see bottom of pant legs). 

Don't get that sinking feeling don't fall apart. 

Sunday, Sarah style

I have not practiced piano, I have read a book, I have done part of my assignment due tomorrow, and I have binged on fruit and Pringles. There are 26 days until my first exam. I should start revising this week.

Now you know

More ballin tomorrow night which should be good. Next year I am dragging everyone along with me and it shall be even better. 

Break was not productive. It was productive in the socialising department. Actually it wasn't even very social. I saw three people basically. Still good. Three awesome people, so very good. I want summer and sun and not freezing wind and rain. Weather today was nice but day off so I didn't actually have any need to go outside. I shall go study now cause my sister has finally left her computer and now I can take over and do my toot work. I'm sleepy though. And that has been an exciting update from Sarah.

Turn down these voices inside my head. Lay down with me, tell me no lies. Just hold me close. Don't patronise me. Cause I can't make you love me if you don't. You can't make your heart feel something it won't.

And it's been there playing on your mind. Now you know you're wrong.

I am an awkward

Self-consciousness has gotten to the point of ridiculous. Stalking old posts on someone's profile, clicked into status, saw a comment and liked it without thinking. Then panic ensued about people judging me about liking the comment when it was from almost two years ago about a slightly awkward subject matter for me despite comment poster not knowing me. Unliked. Desperately hoping that unliking somehow kills their notification. It won't. I will proceed to feel embarrassed for the rest of the day.

I need to calm down. 

Do you remember what summer was like?

So casually cruel in the name of being "honest"

Today I:

- Ate lunch by myself. 

- Got a tummy ache.

- Talked to a lot of people on Facebook throughout my PBL lecture. 

- Borrowed physical books from the library. 

- Got my blanket caught in my zip.

Can't go back. I'm haunted.

What I did today

Missed you

Edit at 8:07pm

It was a get halfway through laundry and feel weepy kind of missing. But oh well. 

It never ever occurred to you that I can't say hello to you and risk another goodbye.

I cleaned my room. I'd forgotten that I had left ten bucks in the jacket I took to America (for food when I got back). So I discovered ten bucks. So happy. I also have too much clothing for my cupboard, and only wished I had more. 

I wasn't particularly productive today, but I don't feel too bad. Actually feel semi on top of things. Probably cause my piano lesson is week after next, and not next week. It makes me slack. 

Went shopping for clothing yesterday (not for me unfortunately) which was greatly fun. Counted my friends today. I have about ten. And that's quite enough to be getting on with and I should be content with that. I have good people. 

But yeah. Cannot wait til summer break. So close now. 

Put your heart up close to my ear

I don't want to fall in love with you again. I'm so afraid I'm capable of it. And after time I can't accept you're still the song on my breath. You're not easy to forget.

Say the words that you know I want to hear. Put your heart up close to my ear. We don't need to know the time. We can stay til the day turns to night.

Yay musics. Massive waves of lack of motivation in the past couple of days. Combination of having lots to do, and being half sick, and just general bad mood and tired, and feelings of inadequacy and all the usual happy things. I blame the mid-sem break not actually being halfway through semester. Makes it tiring and draining for all. It also isn't two weeks this semester. Yes, I am miffed that the half of the year that I do actually have uni to go to isn't broken up by even more breaks. 

Despite my melancholy mood, I think I am starting to enjoy uni (finally). It's a gradual shifting of not so much missing high school, and more being happy when I'm actually at uni even when I am by myself, though I am still not entirely used to being alone sometimes. 

I feel like if I'm blogging I should at least try to make it worth the while of whoever is reading. So let me tell you a random fact...um. There are three conditions that must be met for an agreement to be considered a legally enforceable 'contract'. Both parties must intend for it to be considered as such, it must be executed in deed or consideration from both parties must be given, and there must be an offer and acceptance of the offer i.e. an indication from both parties that they agree to be bound on the stated terms. 

And that is what you can take away from today's blog post. That, and that our best estimate of tomorrow's price of a security is today's price, plus some random error (assuming weak-form market efficiency).